Possibly possible

I couldn't sleep during this very night and I don't know why probably everyone now would be asleep in their very own sweet dream. You see, I was actually sleeping, but there were just so many thoughts running through my mind. The past, present and the future. Time flies, thing changes, I still hold on with its principle and it appears to be a fact when time passed. I still remember there's friends which I used to have had now turned distant, some not so close friends turned out to be now close. It's so unbelievable, isn't it? Although it hasn't been long but it felt like whole decade has been going on. I've always try remain to be the boy who always talk loud and play hard. Well, I'm still the one. :) Do you hear that loud while I'm playing my song, the song that well-maneuver my life. Life thus far.

Many things happened in a period of time, lunatic is the word which I would like to use to describe. Damn, I couldn't even spell describe correctly, it took like a minute for me to figure out the correct spelling. So be it, last month had been a crazy month of breakdowns, like seriously a bunch of them and of course they never failed to follow me up, you know putting me in the state of miseries, suffocation and so forth. You know, problem approaches you continuously while you're trying to come up with resolves with the current one you're facing. You see, live never favors people while others will always attempt to tell you that, remember to be diligent, stay strong eventually all your hardwork will get paid off. Probably it's just some kind of mental sustenance for people who drawn into despair, who gets sick of their life. BE STRONG, that's what they said.

I'm kind of like a weirdo in others' eyes you see, people who hadn't know me well why is this kid so stubborn and unwilling. Kid, when I was still small. It's not that I wanted to be so. You see, I resist myself to have the thought of sharing my feelings and thoughts to the public. Being unreasonably, sometimes I found it there's isn't any points why I should share it among my friends, even close friends. At some point I find it pointless to seek helps from others because clearly they wouldn't have resolves on my problems, aside from that they can only being by side in the meantime. Even though I felt calm and secure at times, it strikes deep and hard when it happens to be midnight, times like now. After all it could been bugging for others as well for knowing it too much.

It's something personal here, but it seems to be very obvious to people around me, so I think it's alright for me to tell here. I'm a person who has high pride, self-priority, image is paramount. How to say, hmm, yes KIA SU attitude. Maybe it's a kind of sickness, who knows. I'll always make sure that people doesn't want to mess with me, but when they do, I'll make sure they get back twice of what they've done to me. It expanded to a certain extent that holds me a very strong opinion-ed person, it's like I know this is right, but whenever people try to stand up and argue with it, I will go against and fight it to win over the argument, to prove it's right. After all it's a fact. 

Well, I think that's all for now, it's not too much, isn't it?
It's now raining, have a very good night world. :) a month..

A mark with questions.

It's been a month since college started. People said that the dominant sense of a human is the feeling. Even though college had actually started, the problem is I don't have a slightest feeling, maybe anxious about it. Things been so effortless, maybe it's just the starting of the semester or should I say new syllabus, maybe it's that tutorials haven't start yet, or maybe I'm taking it leisurely. But it isn't completely a fault of mine you see, we only have to study for 2days a week, which I think it's not enough. After studying for 2days then get to rest for a week which I already feel that ohh soo free, let's get lazyy. Then will have to get my ass up again. I can't seem to balance my life now, so much things ahead while I'm treating it like obscure, sighh. Anyway, hope things go easy on me later.

Class yesterday was fine, the lecturer accidentally cracked a joke related to the Listen Jie which he planned not to do so. The moment when he realized that he cracked the joke and the expression of his was so funny, laughed very hard and my friend sitting beside was like are you OK? HAHAA! :P Class ended at 1 yesterday, which considered early, then went back home with Denise. You see, apparently we look very sok like that, the fact is I can't really communicate well with her. We hardly speak much to each other during the train-waiting period. She's so pwettyy! I shy. :3

Waited for Kuok Kit to come while having lunch with bunch of lame ass juniors, you know who are they. Then they have this dirty joke that really made me laughed my ass out. :3 Then we went for our so-called exercise, you know what is it. :P Won all the games, which I think it's miracle. Well, satisfaction fulfilled, kite orang pergi cari Bui in Kepong Jusco. The awkward moment when you realized the department she's working at and you have to go there and pay for a visit. We hesitated for quite a time before going in there. :P A simple hi and bye and changed our location to Tesco then Sushi King again. Been eating sushi for quite some time already wey during this few days. Hope I don't get sick of it, you know, everyone loves sushii!

I'm thinking of taking up part-time job since college is not that busy, been demanding much pocket money from mum ever since college started. Sometimes I even get scolded for being such a big spender. So apu machiam? Any suggestions? Or should I say any job vacancy? :O

Ehh, by blogging I realized how much my level of skill writing has fall short. You see, I've been cracking my head up everytime I try to blog, really hope it doesn't fall flat, after all I need to do better in the coming tests and exam, not forget verbal communications and also lateral creativity. Anyone knows any idea to get an improve in it? I need solutions. day28..

To hell we ride!

You see, the fact is I've been staring at this blank post for quite an hour and I still don't know how to write about it. I found out that it's supaa difficult for one to has a constant update on Blogspot, especially for a gentleman like meh. :3 Well, let's get things up.

Few days back then, while being so nostalgic, I thought I was all alone by this tranquil night, you know, searching through the Internet, look out for shows to watch, Youtube for songs. Suddenly Bui's chat popped out saying she dreamt of me saying, 

'Ehh, I dreamt of you just now. It's about you come to my funeral and beg me for forgiveness because you drove dangerously and caught up in an accident, then I was thrown out of the car then beeeeeeep!'

More or less that's how it sounds like that lah. You see the question is, am I really driving recklessly a? After all these happened to my car right, I'm now trying very hard not to put myself involve in accident again. Even though I often go exceed with the speed limit, but the road was quite empty, at least I speed in a safety way. :O Speed in a safety way, not sure that kind of saying existed. Well, apologize then, kalau I sudah buat salah. :/

Didn't I told you I went to TBM few days back? Yeah, as a SPM leaver, telling juniors that they still have a long way to go, saying like I've already gone through the long journey, which I thought I was. Now then I realized I don't stand a slightest chance to tell them those. There's so much more ahead, you see not only animals have problem, humans also have problem, their problems are much more weighty you know. The woman, forgot what's her name dy, it's not that I'm supporting that what she said. Somehow, animals do have problem, crisis I think. Some of the animals like dolphins, sharks and so forth, they have this crisis being fall into extinctions. Maybe prey-predator? Maybe I'm thinking too much. :/ The thing is we've a lot more to go, a tougher and longer journey to go. Before it comes, pray hard hope that everything goes smoothly, odabest to you out there. :)

Ohyaa, recently got so into this song.

Mine by Kim Jaejoong from teeveyyexqueuee, lol. I was wondering how I actually come out with this romanized name by transliterating from the name TVXQ, ahahaha! Perhaps new pattern. Bui said 我們都是pattern靠來生活, true true. 

Here are some shots from the music video.

Sci-fi always impress the hell outta me!

Btw, please be moarr active on your blog. Why you all so lazy? Come on, don't be a sloth even though it's cute. :3 I update, you update, dai ka chai chai update, like that bu shi veli happy loh, correct mou? Correct then go update now lah! day26..

Not me, not you

For no reason, I went back to TBM again, this morning. You see, waking up early in the morning is really a pain in the ass, the piercing sound of the alarm when it invades into your sweet dream and the moment you wake up, you feel like you're zombie. Then received text from Ping saying, fetch dia. Apologize sikit eh, everytime fetch you then will make you to wait up for an hour, paiseh. Itu Ah Gan lah, don't want to pick phone one. 
So, it was how it began.

Ever since then, everytime I pass by the route where I used to fetch her back, it gives me so much memories that reminded me everything of her, things she did, stuff she likes, everything about her. The smile of hers lingering in my mind. The one girl that stood out of my life, a girl just like the rest, but it somehow different and she has her differences in her special way. She was so loved and we were so close then for some superficial facts and few interactions over times she became my fairy tale author. The bright spirit of hers was the biggest motivation of mine that kept me going from time to time, the time which I fell into despair, being sick of my life and the time when I was at my lowest. It seldom find myself seeking for chances, even chances are all around and I always seems to get it wrong in a sense of matters. Mr Cupid, you gave me the chance, but why would you end things up like this. I've always wanted to hold these hands of her, for her to share her happiest moments in her life, to wipe tears away from her cheek. But now thing I can only do is runaway, away from the truth. Apparently, I don't have the courage to tell everyone that thing is over. People might as well told me to let go, it's stupid to hold on something that just keep you hurting but it's also stupid to let go of something that you've ever wanted, you've treasured, loved. Why would things ended up like this, how did perfection became, imperfection. She is almost perfect for me, the only thing I know it wasn't perfect was the timing. Strangers, again... imy

Collegey

College just started this week, will have to only attend the classes on Monday and Tuesday, quite free isn't it? Well, those general subjects start on February, so yeah free for now. You see, the problem is I've been receiving much of this information saying that A-level is that kind of very hard courses to take on.

I can't believe you're taking A-level, really A-level ah? A-level very hard one woh! 

Pangsai very hard one woh? You bukan constipation meh? Why you still go pangsai one?

Dude, please get things clear here. I'm the one who's taking it, I'm the one who's going to sit for the friggin' exam, why would it bother you so much about it and it's a obvious respond saying that I will not able to cope up with the syllabus. Listen, listen, listen, wa suka lu suka? It's okeh you don't agree with it but why can't you just stay out of it and stop giving your so called point of view. Get a life prease? :)

Another problem is this traffic issue in KL, till now I don't get the favour, should say permission or chance to drive to college. Traffic in KL is so hectic and terrible, even if I'm able to drive along, definitely would have hard times finding car park, parking vacancy in YMCA and KL Central occupied, fully. Situation left me no choice to go to college by sitting commuter train. Class starts at 10, then I'll have to wake up at 8 and my ass up to the commuter station. Hell man, I need to sleeeep. Then reach college like 45minutes early, what's the point. :O

I shall talk a lil bit about the orientation days. I planned to sleep early before the day tho, ended up lok lai lok qu on the bed, lol. It's already at the wee hours when I actually get the chance to fall asleep. Then I decided not to sleep anymore, for some reason I texted Bui about it and she's like 

Okeh, what you're gonna then? I don't know, lol.

Reached like an hour earlier, was so sweaty that I can felt the weight of my hankie, I know it sounds gross. :P While waiting for others, was anticipated to meet with my new cousin, well as you can see from my previous post she wasn't here so yeah. The orientation days were more like leadership training for me and it bored the hell out of me. You see, what we played there were groupings, group cheer and stuffs, then they have this Pass the ball game, who passes the ball in a shorter win. All these we played during secondary school bro, don't like that lah bro, give me something interesting prease. We ended up ran away from the orientation during break time, which Miss Chai called it a CUTE ACT, yeah I'm cute. :P The 3rd day was talentime, we did the CUTE ACT again, yeah we suu cute. I think basically that's about it, the orientation days, boooooringg!

First day of classes and the lecturer was absent having this chickenpox at this old age, not sure what age tho. :O One of the founder of the college came up and told us this and replace her for the lecture. While the lecture was going on, he told that his son started his A-level at the age of 12 and finished his degree when he was 16, I was like wutdafark? You're not kidding me right? Then some more saying how he actually built up his career and the college, how success he is now and people tend to ask for his consultations when they have problems in doing business. RINGGG! BREAK TIME! Ohh, there will not be a bell ring anymore, I miss TBM. :( Had lunch in Old Town then back to class for Econs. It's a bit shocking for me, CEO of the college is the econs' lecturer.

'Tell everybody your name and something special about you! he said.

'My name is Wayne. Well I have a dog, it's 2years old and I love him very much.' I crapped, LOL!

In case you don't know, this is my college.

Class ended at 5, found my lost bottle. Go back luu!

Nic and Cass

It's like almost a month time, attended cousin's wedding, the HE is my cousin btw. I know I was being laidback back then, I beg your pardon then. Their girl friend and boy friend-ship lasted for 9 or 10years, forgot the actual year, it's very difficult for a couple to maintain their relationship going thru such a long period you see. I envy, even jealous. Maybe he wanted to wait till his career at its highest, and yeah he has quite an achievement in his courier and he's still counting, it's good isn't it. Well back to the topic, they were been planning this for quite a long time but they actually had no time for that but now they've their marriage. By here wishing them all's well ends well, white head till old. :)  

Hi hi hi, like superstar like that :P

All of us reached at the wedding place to see whether there's a need for help or not, but we ended up chatting till the dinner starts, for 3hours I think. HAHA! Then the feast started, YAY! FOOD! :P Overall the food was nice. Ohyaa, the wedding held on the 2nd floor of SIN CHOI WAH LAO, Menjalara. There's plenty of jokes we've talked about but I forgot dah, too bad can't get to share that, paiseh neh.

Let's enjoy some photo shots. :)

The stage.

Cousins, some weren't here.

Dad and Mum.

Angeline and meh.

Not everyone's here but it still looks good. :)

Baby Ivan! Teee! :D

Then I actually met up with this far-part cousin, lol. Her father is my father's cousin, well I don't know how it related to me but it's related and yeap she's Lim as well, and that's why they said Zhen, you stand no chance, she's Lim! Her name is Melanie, people call her mermaid you see, from the name she's pretty and yeah she's very pretty. I get to met her by the chance of the saying she's interested in law. My aunt actually brought her up to me and all the law stuffs started up, was anticipating to meet her during the orientation days in BAC, but then she told me that she went to Sunway. Everyone was like waah Zhen go lohh! Go apa doi oh go go. Too bad I don't have a photo with her, prolly we will never meet again until the  next relatives' wedding, good luck new cousin. :O

After the wedding while everyone was settling stuffs up and off to cousin's house and as I know that there's party going on at the center I quickly drove off. Well, even it's only like a 10minutes stays, I get to confirm something. imy :(